Wednesday, September 26, 2012

I changed my mind


Well, I gotta say that I changed my mind. It's about my heart that fights against my brain. Too strong.

I can be tough, I can be strong
But with you, it's not like that at all
There's a girl that gives a shit
Behind this wall, you just walk through it

And I remember all those crazy things you said
You left them running though my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it, just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

Damn, damn, damn
What I'd do to have you here, here, here
I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn
What I'd do to have you near, near, near
I wish you were here

I love the way you are
It's who I am, don't have to try hard
We always say, say it like it is
And the truth is that I really miss

All those crazy things you said
You left them running though my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it, just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

Damn, damn, damn
What I'd do to have you here, here, here
I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn
What I'd do to have you near, near, near
I wish you were here

No, I don't wanna let go, I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go, let go, oh, oh
No, I don't wanna let go, I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go, let go, let go, let go
Let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go
Let go, let go, let go

Damn, damn, damn
What I'd do to have you here, here, here
I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn
What I'd do to have you near, near, near
I wish you were here

Damn, damn, damn
What I'd do to have you here, here, here
I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn
What I'd do to have you near, near, near
I wish you were here
(Wish You Were Here   - Avril Lavigne) 


I know I let him down by making mistakes, so did he. But I'm just trying to save us.

There's nothing I could say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me
All the pain, the tears I cried
Still you never said goodbye
And now I know how far you'd go

I know I let you down
But it's not like that now
This time I'll never let you go

I will be all that you want
And get myself together
'Cause you keep me from falling apart

All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

I thought that I had everything
I didn't know what life could bring
But now I see, honestly
You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe 'cause you're here with me

And if I let you down
I'll turn it all around
'Cause I will never let you go

I will be all that you want
And get myself together
'Cause you keep me from falling apart

All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

'Cause without you I can't sleep
I'm not gonna ever ever let you leave
You're all I've got, you're all I want

Yeah and without you, I don't know what I'd do
I could never ever live a day without you
Here with me, do you see, you're all I need?

And I will be all that you want
And get myself together
'Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life
(My life)
I'll be with you forever
(Forever)

To get you through the day
And make everything okay
(Okay)
I will be all that you want
(I'll be)
And get myself together
(Get myself together)

'Cause you keep me from falling apart
And all my life, you know I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day and make everything okay
(I Will Be - Avril Lavigne)

Monday, September 24, 2012

Wait For You

So, tessa and I get a job for dancing in "Soulnation". We have to make a 3-minutes-choreography. And we decided to use my swag choreography plus her lyrical choreography.I use the song "You're A Jerk" and she uses "Wait For You". And yeah, I fell in love with her choreography, well actually the song and the lyrics, so I love to dance with this song. Here it is :)


I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I’m missing you and I’m wishing
You would come back through my door, ooh
Why did you have to go? You could've let me know
So now I’m all alone

Girl, you could have stayed but you wouldn’t give me a chance
With you not around it’s a little bit more than I can stand, ooh
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it’s a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be

So baby, I will wait for you
'Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby, I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do, I’ll wait for you

Been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me?)
You gotta be feeling crazy
How can you walk away, everything stays the same
I just can’t do it baby

What will it take to make you come back?
Girl, I told you what it is and it just ain’t like that
No, why can’t you look at me? You’re still in love with me
Don’t leave me crying

Baby, why can’t we just, just start over again?
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But you’re telling me it won’t be enough

So baby, I will wait for you
'Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby, I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do, I’ll wait for you

So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it’s a lie what you’re keeping inside
That is not how you want it to be

Baby, I will wait for you
Baby, I will wait for you
If it’s the last thing I do

Baby, I will wait for you
'Cause I don’t know what else I can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby, I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do, I’ll wait for you

I’ll be waiting


(Elliot Yamin)

Thursday, September 20, 2012

Monday, September 17, 2012

Harder Than You Know

You said this could only get better
There's no rush cause we have each other
You said this would last forever
But now I doubt if I was your only lover

Are we just lost in time?
I wonder if your love's the same
Cause I'm not over you

Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go
Not loving you is harder than you know
Cause girl you're driving me so crazy

How can I miss you if you never would stay?
If you need time I guess I'll go away (I'll go away)
Inside me now there's only heartache and pain
So where's the fire? You've become the rain

Are we just lost in time?
I wonder if your love's the same
Cause I'm not over you

Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go
Not loving you is harder than you know
Girl you're driving me so crazy

And if you don't want me than
I guess I'll have to go (I guess I'll have to go)
Not loving you is harder than you know
(Yeah)

So I'll make the call
And I'll leave today
I'm gonna miss you cause I love you baby

And I'll make the call
I'm leaving today
And leaving always drives me crazy

Leaving always drives me crazy

Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go
Not loving you is harder than you know
(Yeah)

Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go
Not loving you is harder than you know
Cause girl you're driving me so crazy
And if you don't want me than
I guess I'll have to go
Not loving you is harder than you know
Girl You're driving me so crazy

Baby, don't talk to me
I'm trying to let go
Not loving you is harder than you know
Cause girl you're driving me so crazy


- Escape The Fate

Thursday, September 13, 2012

Forget You - Glee

I see you drivin' 'round town with the guy I love
And I'm like, forget you
I guess the change in my pocket wasn't enough
I'm like, forget you and forget him too

Said, if I was richer I'd still be with ya

Huh, now ain't that some shh (ain't that some shh)
Now though there's pain in my chest
I still wish you the best
With a.. Forget you!

Yeah I'm sorry, I can't afford a ferrari

But that don't mean I can't get you there
I guess she's an Xbox and I'm more an Atari
Hmm, but the way you play your game ain't fair

I pity the fool that falls in love with you

(Ooh, she's a gold digger, just thought you should know
it)
Ooh, I got some news for you
Yeah! Go run and tell your little girlfriend

I see you drivin' 'round town with the guy I love

And I'm like, forget you (ooh)
I guess the change in my pocket wasn't enough
I'm like, forget you and forget him too

Said, if I was richer I'd still be with ya

Now ain't that some shh (ain't that some shh)
Now though there's pain in my chest
I still wish you the best
With a.. Forget you!

Now I know, that I had to borrow

Beg and steal and lie and cheat
Tryin' to keep ya, Tryin' to please ya
'Cause being in love with you ain't cheap

I pity the fool that falls in love with you


(Ooh, she's a gold digger, just thought you should know it) Yea

Ooh, I got some news for you
Oh, I really hate you right now

I see you drivin' 'round town with the guy I love

And I'm like, forget you
I guess the change in my pocket wasn't enough
I'm like, forget you and forget him too

Said, if I was richer I'd still be with ya

Huh, now ain't that some shh (ain't that some shh)
Now though there's pain in my chest
I still wish you the best
With a.. Forget you!

Now baby, baby, baby why do you wanna, wanna hurt me so

bad (so bad) so bad
(so bad) yeah, ohh
I tried to tell my momma but she told me this is one
for your dad (your dad, your dad, your dad)
Yes she did, Yes she did

(Ooh) WHY?

(Ooh) WHY?
(Ooh) WHY? BABY?
(Ooh!) I love you! I still love you! Hey yeah!

I see you drivin' 'round town with the guy I love

And I'm like, forget you (forget you, ooh yeah)
I guess the change in my pocket wasn't enough (ooh)
I'm like, forget you and forget him too (ooh baby)

Said, if I was richer I'd still be with ya (yeah you)

Huh, now ain't that some shh (ain't that some shh)
Although there's pain in my chest
I still wish you the best (wish you the best)
With a.. Forget you! Oooh

You.








Monday, September 10, 2012

Live In

1 September 2012.
siangnya gue ke teko, ketemu sama wendy tessa will acuy.
terus ke sekolah buat ngumpul dan pengarahan dulu sebelum berangkat.
karena yang lain misa dulu, jadi mereka ya udah ngumpul daritadi.
gue, wendy, dan tessa, dateng lari-lari karena hampir telat.
sampe di dpn resepsionis, gue merasa diliatin dan tiba-tiba ada suara suster:
"rambut tidak boleh diurai"
oke gue langsung ambil ancang-ancang nguncir rambut sambil jalan ke barisan.
sambil ngegerutu juga sih.
yaaah mana gua tau sih kalo gakboleh diurai, sampe bis juga langsung dilepas elah ribet amat.
terus, entah kenapa, mulai sejak ngumpul, gue merasa sesuatu yang aneh sama hati gue *yeaa
oke, skip. kita menuju bis masing-masing dan memulai perjalanan panjang ke wonosari.
selama perjalanan................. galau.
entah suasananya ato apa gue gaktau.
pokoknya, selama perjalanan, selama pemberhentian, dan selama tidur.
gua gak tenang. aneh.


2 September 2012.
kita sampe di wonosari dan langsung turun dan naro barang di dalem hall sekolah situ.
terus bersih-bersih, pipis dan gosok gigi, lalu makan.
tapi makanannya gue gaksuka jadi yah gue makan pisang aja sama minum susu.
lalu gua naik truk ke Girisubo.
seru sih, gue dadah2 kayak anak udik.
anginnya seger, sejuk, adem, gak berdebu walaupun kering.
singkat cerita, gua dan teman2 girisubo sampe di rumah pak sarjono (kalo gaksalah)
dia itu ketua lingkungan. disana, kita disuguhin mendoan, teh manis tentunya, dan kacang.
disana kita dikasihtau bakal tinggal di keluarga yang mana.
gue dan partner gue, rachelle aka achel dapet seorang bapak yang bawa anak kecil cowo gendut.
setelah seneng, gue dan achel pipis. dan pas balik tiba-tiba kita udh ditinggal si bapak.
oke akhirnya setelah nunggu kita dijemput pake mobil dan dianter kesana.
pas gue turun, gue agak kaget karena ternyata rumah yang gue tinggalin gedeee dan udah berubin bertembok semua.
syukur... kalo gue pikir sih.
nyampe-nyampe gue kenalan sama seisi rumah yang ada di sana.
ada mbah putri tira yang dipanggil Bu Titi,
mbah kakung karman yang dipanggil Pak Karman sekaligus yang tadi ada di rumah pak sarjono,
Dhevi, anak 2 SMA yang ternyata cucu tirinya.
Nanda, TK B yang ternyata cucu angkatnya.
abis itu gue dan achel naro barang di kamar.
gue sangat sangat sangat sangat bersyukur...
karna apa? kasurnya gak ada robekan ato bolongan THANK GOD :)

3-5 September 2012
singkat cerita, kerjaan gue itu makan banyak, bertamu, disuguhin teh manis dan berbagai cemilan dan makanan enak lainnya.
gue juga sempet ikut ke pasar jam 4 pagi dan gue sangat pusing dan cape abis dari pasar.
tapi gue tetep seneng karna bisa liat langsung pasar kayak apa dan makanan yang aneh2.
gue juga sempet "neng alas" yaitu ke ladang. yang ternyata lumayan jauh dan jalannya masih ekstrimmmm.
di sana gue megang kepala sapi :3 lucu banget deh, tapi gak ada namanya, jadi gue ngasih nama dia achel, dan achel ngasi nama dia angie -_-
gue juga sempet belajar nari jawa sekali sama dhevi, dia ternyata penari jawa. 
susah loh ternyata, gue gakbisa dan malah diketawain, katanya jalannya kaya orang abis sunatan hahaa.
ohya, gue dan temen2 juga main voli tiap malem, karna lagi ada acara rasulan gitu.
kita juga belajar lagu Mbah Gondo (tempatnya cynto sama amel) yang ada 4 versi ; 
desa, dusun, cewe, cowo. gitudeh haha.
oke akhirnya kita (Girisubo A) bikin tim ato kelompok ato apalah itu yang namanya "GSB 20" karna kita 20 orang dan biar keren aja gitu mirip JKT 48 huahaha.
oh iya, gue jg sering jaga warung dan gak jarang bikin pelanggan nunggu lama dan kebingungan, ato gue jual dengan harga yang salah :s maaf buuuuu 
gue juga sempet bantuin si ibu goreng2 dll, dan hasilnya gak enak kaya punya ibu :(
terus sebelum pulang gue nyatet resep2 ibu yang sangat gue suka; 
terong balado, sayur koro, dll.
oh ya gue sempet bikin getuk lho! lucu deh dibentuk2 gitu hahaha.
oh iya, ibu keluarga ini, Ibu Ratna juga pulang.
dia kerjanya ngurusin rental mobil di Jogja.
Mas Dheki juga sempet pulang, dia kelas 3 SMA di Jogja juga.
Kalo Mas Dheki ini anak kandung Bu Ratna.
tanggal 5 malem kita sempet manggung gitu nyanyi lagu Mbah Gondo, Tanah Air, sama terajana.
sedih deh, pada nangis-nangis gituu.

6 September 2012
pagi ini kita siap-siap mau pulang, pamit2an.
dan gue sempet ketemu Pak Yoyo (suami Bu Ratna, bapak kandung Dhevi)
gue tau banyak kan B)
intinya kita pulang dan pada nangis2an gitu, gue gaktahan jadi gue ikut nangis deh.
dengan bawa berbagai macem oleh2 dari keluarga masing2, kita pulang menuju wonosari naik truk.
disana kita disambut sama anak SMA dan SMK disana, diajarin nyanyi, disuguhin lagu dll.
si jepri ngasih bunga ke penyanyinya, dan si bulah gakmau kalah.
dia ngasih ubi segede bagong ke depan, lawak abisss.
oke terus kita menuju bis masing2.
gue galau lagi hahahaha emang suasana bis bikin galau kayaknya sih.
gue tidur sampe ngigo kata si tessa.
dan gue mimpi-bangun-mimpi-bangun gitu.
tau ah, galau.


7 September 2012
pagi2 kita sampe di sekolah dengan badan pegel2.
ngumpul di hall, pengarahan bentar, terus boleh pulang.
mood gue somehow jelek deh.
tapi gue seneng dari live in :)

gue belajar dan liat banyak selama live in.
cara mereka bergaul, cara mereka berjuang,
cara mereka kerja..
makanan2 baru kayak koro, utri, cemplon, dll.
tungku kayu bakar, ladang, sapi.
jalan gelap, mainan gasing, pasar kaget.
naik truk, jaga warung, jalan2.
thankyou, girisubo :)